Hindsight is 20/20.

It was not amusing at all. Scene: I had just gotten home. My 11-year-old brother is sitting right next to me scrolling on YouTube shorts. On his phone. In full view of at least three adults.

I was absolutely appalled. And if you don’t see how this is disconcerting, I honestly don’t know help you. O yes, I hate to break it to y’all but I am not the cool, nonchalant, big sister; I’m the deputy parent type. And so I sprang into action: explained to my brother the peril he was in, disabled YouTube with his consent and called my parents to a discussion on further measures.

Speaking about parents…these same parents wouldn’t allow me have a phone in high school. I tried everything: begging, psychological manipulation…uhm, we’ll leave at that. You already know too much.

In any case, I’ve realized my high school self wouldn’t want me, as at now, as a parent. I thought my parents were uptight but the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree does it? Wahenga were on to something there.

I know up to now I’ve made it sound like I’m pretty mature. I’m not too sure. Our 11-year-old receives constructive feedback  better than I do. I kick and scream at least 98% of the time when God says no to my plans. And there’s been a lot of kicking and screaming this year lemme tell ya. This past week actually. God is currently trying to get me off milk. But God, what happens to ice-cream? And Wild berries Delamere yoghurt? Ah. You see? Kicking and screaming.

But I am learning to give it time. To trust and obey. God is good Father.

KJV Psalms 84
11…no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.

As we lay the year to rest, I see how He has led me. Tantrums notwithstanding, He has led me well. And in so many ways I see that if we were to go back, I would have it no other way; except to have trusted more. Just like the phone drama.

God never leads His children otherwise than they would choose to be led, if they could see the end from the beginning, and discern the glory of the purpose which they are fulfilling as co-workers with Him. DA 224.5