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I believed in light, stronger than how the sun brights the sky.
I believed in love; that seeks and clings and longs to be nigh.
I believed in life; that’s growing, in knowing and soaring higher than eagles fly.

But I not only believed; I craved,
With yearnings stronger than the grave.
And so like a hound I sought,
Oh friend, my quest was not for nought.

First I settled for light meager like the twinkling of stars,
Then the love I found only left me with scars,
And I only knew a life of fleeting lusts that had me in chains; behind its bars.

These things did shake me to my core,
Left me in brokenness but yearning for more.
Yet now I realize my folly,
Listen; that’s not the end of the story..

I sought for things inanimate,
Things found only in a Man I met.
I knew not I needed a Person,
Who is light, love, life!; I’ve learnt my lesson.


I believe in Jesus: the Sun of Righteousness,
He is love: chasing, engulfing, a Lover dauntless,
And He is life in its abundance and fullness.

I believe in Jesus.

“I’m going to die alone,” said the random , intrusive thought in my head. My answer now rationally is yes, of course. Who shares a casket dear, anxious heart? But yes, I know that’s not exactly cause of anxiety. So my second answer will be, yes, you will in the literal sense die alone but you are not living alone. I can explain:

In the recent past I have been relishing and thriving in amazing friendships. Its been good, its been awesome, its become a chorus. Daisy, what are you grateful for?– My friends. Daisy, what’s your testimony?– Amazing friends/ God answered my friend’s prayers. And I still am, but welllll….

It gets interesting now. “My friends ” are no longer a 10-minute drive away, not even easily a phone call away. Life is getting a bit busy, for them and for me. So yesterday I was telling my sister, Oh, I no longer have friends because her best friend is a stone-throw away. And recently I was telling God the same thing. You know what God said! God said, “Okay child, fair enough. But bytheway, what happened to Jesus?” So I’ve stopped in my tracks, and knew, oh, it’s lesson time here, and well, when God is your teacher, it’s going to be a good one. Not easy, but good. And here is what I’m learning:

God understands our need for companionship. He gets it’s a necessity. His word says:

KJV Genesis 2
18 And the Lord God said, It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him a help meet for him.

And yes, this is relevant for all relationships not merely marriage. So yes, God does not invalidate our needs. He understands and seeks to make provision for them. The problem however comes when we love the gift more than the Giver. This is the definition of idolatry.

You see, “Every good and every perfect gift is from above,”(James 1:17) and is designed to lift our chins up to see, glorify and love the Giver- including our beautiful relationships. Consider this:

Through the things of nature, and the deepest and tenderest earthly ties that human hearts can know, He has sought to reveal Himself to us. SC 10.3

And so God has to do something lest these gifts start to become a curse:

In His mercy and faithfulness, God often permits those in whom we place confidence to fail us in order that we may learn the folly of trusting in man and making flesh our arm.GW 476.6

Now this has been manifesting in my life through various ways: All of a sudden I feel people are busy, all of a sudden I have problems only God can relate to, all of a sudden others are going abroad, ah😅. Lessons with God; good but not easy.

But I’ll say this, God does not call us to follow Him then forsake us. If we surrender our lives to His service, we can never be placed in a position for which God has not made provision. COL 173.1

It has been liberating. It has been freeing me from having Godlike expectations for my human friends. My friends can be present for me but they cannot be Omnipresent. They can know me but to the extent to which I am willing to reveal because they are not Omniscient:-they can’t read my mind and get notified that, “Oh, Daisy is discouraged. This is the exact verse that will encourage her.” No. That’s a God thing. They have very limited power to solve my problems because they are not Omnipotent. Omniscient, Omnipresent, Omnipotent; yeah those are only found in a friendship with Jesus.

I may die alone, but I’m not living alone-ever. We are not alone, God is with us. That’s why He’s called Immanuel.

Today, I thanked God,
That I have a friend in you;
A friend like you.

So a voice intruded and asked,
What could you give?
Because I don’t think you deserve,
A friend in them,
A friend like them.

So I thought long and hard
On how to return,
All the pleasures I’ve found
In this bond of love.

A trip to the Maldives?
My pockets said no!
A balm for all your grief,
But I’m no doctor, you know..

I’m not perfect,
But I’m trying
Ah, I’ll always be there;
No, I’d be lying.

I’m sorry dear friend,
I know I’ve not been the best,
But this is what I know,
How my love I have shown:

That when you have fallen short,
In those days that only rain wrought;
I prayed.

When my strength was gone,
And you had to walk alone;
I prayed.

I have prayed for you,
Because I’m not the perfect friend;
But I know the One who is.

So my friend,
If they ask you if I was a perfect friend,
Tell them; No! But at least she prayed.

We know how the story ends,
If Jesus is Saviour and Friend:
That there’s no condemnation,
But victory and salvation.

As the shadows grow dark with mystery,
And your heart is all pain and misery,
Look up to the uplifted tree,
Where the bound and broken are freed.

Slow down, sit in stillness,
Watch He how wields your weakness,
To reveal His bright glory,
And make beautiful your marred story.

We know how the story ends,
How the narrative to bliss bends,
But meanwhile there is grace,
As Jesus prepares for you a place.

“The world is wild: Eyes up child.”

When is the last time you went outside and looked up? I tried it. I went outside and I looked, up, down and all around; I’m here to tell you what I found.

As I considered these things, many thoughts crossed my mind:

I remembered how, just a few days ago I went to church. I looked and saw the trees all around and we had to stop and marvel. Some had their trunks twisted and turned in the most interesting fashion only to make beautiful canopy at the top. Some just went straight up, standing bold and tall. And as we sat that day under the sanctuary of nature, I couldn’t help but look up. And I saw just how the umbrella of branches and leaves covered us from hot scorch of January sun. Often, the breeze would blow, and beat modern, man-made air conditioning while shaking the branches of the trees around so the leaves would fall on us.

I remembered how I got home after a sad day and looked up. And I saw the most amazing sunset. I got a bit angry that God had the time to beautify the earth thinking that instead nature should be gloomy and groan with me. But I know it did wrought a healing balm. And I can’t tell you how many times I have had to steal away at the end of the day just to watch the sun set. Because I know that when I see it die into the western horizon, and how the scanty cotton-like clouds are painted in its golden tint, it does something to my soul.

But time would fail me to write how even the sky looks at night. How the stars twinkle in their meager white light, but because the sky is black, I can see them shine. How the wayside flower is alloyed in most charming colours and fragrant perfumes only to go unnoticed or wither the next day.

On that night, as I considered these things, I was led to a higher look. I was led to the throne of the One behind these things. And I marvelled at the thought of the Creator. A God who holds the whole universe in place, but has time to paint the sky with beauty and the flowers with charm. Who is in the middle of a great controversy but has time to put flavour in mangoes and grapes and decide the tilt of our nose, the arch of our lips and the complexion of our skin. “God is good!” I exclaimed, and grew deeper in love with Him.

However, almost immediately I remembered the state of the world. I recalled how many times I walked to school only to see children less than half my age beg for meager bread. I rembered the excruciating pain when my loved ones were taken away by death. Even here, time would fail me to tell of atrocities like the Rwandan genocide, the war in Ukraine, the sick down my street, the unjustly treated, the lady raped multiply by men she thought she could trust and the list continues…

Where was God? David Asscherick made this statement, ” Everything that God does is an act of love, but not everything that happens is an act of God.” I believe that. I receive that. Yet I still shuddered to think that He would allow these things. Would I still believe if my dearest on earth was taken away, if I was not assured of the stability of a job after school or whatever stability looks like, if I lost everything and everyone in a day,Job, remember? Would I trust? Yes, God did not cause these things, but how could He allow?

I don’t have all the answers. And sometimes we need healing more than answers. But God did assure me of these two things:

KJV Romans 8
32 He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?

We serve a God that was willing to die eternally than spend eternity without us. He despised the shame and pain of the cross if it would mean that we are saved. Ultimately, the Cross is the insurance to our assurance that God is for us. I may not understand all things, but this I know, God is on my side.

And the second thing is this, that God will add grace when it is needed. His mercies are new every morning. And as the day, so the strength He giveth His own. One day at a time. If He shall bid me bear some pain or grief, then He shall enable me bear it, for His biddings are enablings.

Reader, we can trust this type of God.

We shall overcome!
What other word can the troubled calm,
And be to the pilgrim a healing balm.

We shall overcome!
We shall raise victory’s palms,
And sing Moses’ and the Lamb’s psalm.

We shall overcome!
For God provided a Lamb,
Our Salvation to confirm.

We shall overcome!
For we’re held in Omnipotent arms,
And His elect, none can harm.

We shall overcome!
Oh in this hope be firm,
For soon our Saviour shall come.

Hello child,
It’s been a while
I know, I know; the world is wild,
You have been busy,
I understand, its not easy.
But I also see you’re tired.
Your spirit is burnt not fired.

You can’t see the way,
And it’s even harder to pray,
Because I always seem to delay,
And you’re left in disarray.

You’ve come too far to look back,
But the way ahead is foggy and black.
So yes, stop.
And all your plans drop.
Be still,
Let me speak, for you are weak,
And you don’t know my will.

Child I have plans,
To prosper and not to harm.
And though the world quakes or burns,
You’re held in everlasting arms.

I am your Father,
And we’re stronger far together.
You don’t have to try, my hands to pry.
I am willing to give,
If only you would receive.

So Child, Let.

Let me live in your heart; to have and to hold and never part.(Rev 3:20).
Let me be your strength instead of giving you strength.(2 Corinth. 12:9-10).
Let me heal you from lies with truth that never changes or dies.(John 8:32).
Oh child, all I need you to do,
Is let me love you.( John 3:16).

When you meet my old friends;
Tell them I have a message from this end.
Tell them I’m still in the narrow way,
And I choose it till this day.
Tell them I’m not the same,
That I have a new name.
Tell them, yes, I still feel pain,
And, that I’ve seen sunshine and rain.
That my loved ones still die,
And some in sickbeds lie.
But Tell them I pray,
And see clouds roll away.
Tell them I’m healing as we speak,
And that I’m strong when I’m weak.
Tell them that I’m sorry,
For my faults and folly.
Tell them that they’re forgiven,
For when by their acts and words I was broken.
Tell them I still pray and wait,
To see them by the golden gate.
Tell them I’ll cry in heaven,
If in the book of life they’re not written.
Tell them mercy is still pleading,
And that Jesus longs to grant them healing.

Exams are definitely not my particular idea of fun. I remember a time in high school when I dreaded, particularly, math exams. Why? Well, because I mostly did not understand it, so I didn’t enjoy it and thus I didn’t study it. It’s only obvious that I wouldn’t enjoy the exam therefore, because it reminded me of my weakness, it made my failure a reality and no one likes that.

You see the whole point of scripts is that they are lived out. That’s the true test; That’s life’s exam! We previously established that the Christian’s Script is Scripture. And if we are being honest, most of us are failing terribly or scarcely winning. Thus eventually, our intellectual knowledge is in vain. If I claimed to know math, and braged about it to my friends throughout the term, they of course would wait to see my exam transcript. And if it is contrary to my claims, then my profession is void. It is so even with our Christian life.

But why are we failing?

Let’s go back to my math analogy. For a long time, I refused to accept I was weak. That was until my near final exams. I was confronted with an evident ultimate failure backed by past cumulative underperformed transcripts. And I did what I should have done a long time ago; admitted my weakness and asked for help.

You see, at the very basis of Christianity is the fact that man is not self-sufficient. We fundamentally believe that we are created and further that in God, we live, move and have our being. We often mistake the agency and liberty of choice bestowed on us by a loving God to be our own strength. We forget so easily.

Infact, aside from mere existence, the standard outlayed for the Christian- Godliness, Godlikenes- is far beyond anything that we in and of ourselves are able to conjure. We are living in a state weakened by sin for over 6000 years; how is it we claim to understand the extents of Godliness and much more the living out of it?

We first of all fail when we refuse to see our weakness. When we choose rather blindness to clear cumulative evidences of our desperate need for a Saviour. He/she who does not see their need, their weakness will not venture out for strength or a Saviour. God does not need to arbitrarily be involved to ensure our failure. It is the ultimate result of severing our souls from the source of life. When a branch is severed from the vine, it inevitably withers and dies. But God in His mercy wields our failure to bring us back to Himself.

Second we fail because we do not ask. When I realized the inevitable deterioration of my math grade, I had two options; to succumb and sink in despair or, to ask for help. Often when God brings my sin/weakness/ failure to live up to the standard set by Him, I have sank in despondency. But I am realizing that that is the deception of the devil. God never points out sin to condemn or revile. His word says;

KJV Romans 5
20 Moreover the law entered, that the offence might abound. But where sin abounded, grace did much more abound:

When I am shown how I am falling short by God, it is that He may grant grace, that He may send help.

KJV 2 Corinthians 12
9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

But we fail because instead of praying in weakness, we despair. We fail when we do not take hold of the Omnipotent arm. God is willing to send grace, to send help more than we are to ask.

My math grade redemption was really in these two steps; I accepted my weakness, and asked for help. Yes, I got a good grade.

In a world with so many scripts, it’s hard to find our bearing, the true North. What is true and what is not.

This however is crucial because our perception of reality fundamentally dictates the trajectory of our lives; our character and the choices we make.

What script do you abide by? And in what fires have those ideologies been tried and proven true and sustainable? Is it the “Follow your heart” narrative, “follow the crowd” or follow the Bible?

As a millennial Christian this is the reality I am having to navigate and graple with, and it’s not easy to say the least. Feelings can be so loud and persuasive, following the crowd gives a presumptive sense of belonging and theeen, there’s the Bible. You see, there’s a difference between these other scripts and Scripture. It is that Scripture is constant. It is not affected by the fluctuations of hormones, economy, fashion or geography.

Sounds nice right? But is it really the reality of our experience? When all around gives way and your experience veers off of what God’s word says, does it still hold water? Are you able to sustain a constant when everything else is not?

Well, I’m learning that everything that can be shaken will be shaken. Truth is, the heart yearns for constancy, and this is only met in the Bible. So when all around is sinking sand, we remain with the choice; to go with the oscillating flows, or be planted on solid ground.

I assume like me, you’d like the safety of solid ground. But maintaining the constant script found in the Bible is not easy when everything else is seems against it. So I’ll share two things that keep me grounded:

1. God’s omniscience.

It has been profoundly significant to know that Scripture is the word of a God who knows the end from the beginning. His promises and requirements are backed by omniscience and infinite love. He knew what He was saying because He could see it, and He gave Scripture as reality’s marking scheme so we also don’t have to guess.

2. His biddings are enablings.

God does not bid us to follow then leave us. If we surrender our lives to His service, we cannot be placed in a position for which He has not made provision. When He bids us trust, it is because He has and is going to give evidence sure enough to trust. When He bids us do, it is because He is able to make us willing to do and the the power thereof. When He bids us to seek Him, it is because He’s already on our path chasing us!

Scripture is the Christian’s Script; it’s the Word of a God who’s Constant and Compassionate. Therefore trust.

…to be continued.